14 Aug 2013

A very nice surprise and a couple of wet eyes.

Today for the first time in a very long while, I cried with happiness. Not a big cry, just a few little tear drops escaped my eyes. I quickly wiped them away and replaced them with the world’s biggest smile because today something happened that made all of this nastiness worth it. Something positive has come from the biggest negative in my life. But before I tell you all my exciting news, let me just fill you in on the last couple of days.

I saw my plastic surgeon on Monday. When he looked at his handiwork the words “DING DONG” actually came out of his mouth *cue blushes. I mean that has got to be good news right? I still need to have a couple of other operations to finish things off but I must say that I am also pretty happy with the result so far. Once I am all healed the only unsual thing about me will be my scars. Scars that I will learn to be proud of because they will remind me of my strength. They are my battle scars. A battle that I am planning on winning. I’m trying to focus on the positives, not dwell on the negatives. I’m no psychologist but I reckon if we all did that we would be much happier.

I have also been working on how to rock the whole very short hair look. It is pretty difficult to feel feminine with hair this short. I actually turned a little diva-ish the other day and rocked it out with some pretty mega accessories…

I have also been busy thanking the Universe muchly for Beyonce, Rhianna, Jessie J and their new short hair do’s. Maybe people will now just think I’m bang on trend with my hairstyle and did it through choice. That’s what I’m hoping anyway. For once in my life maybe I’ll be one of the cool kids?! *cough cough.

I have been writing this blog for nearly eight months. I have heard from and made friends with other women unfortunate enough to meet Kenneths of their own. Some of them also named their lumps and that I see that as a big compliment. This blog has also allowed me to meet some younger people diagnosed with other forms of cancer or serious illnesses. To hear from them that reading about my experience helps them in some way is amazing. Actually, I can’t believe how many people have now read my little old blog, the majority of these people do not even have cancer themselves but read anyway and that also amazes me. I never thought so many of you would be interested in my little life. Strangers that I do not even know are rooting for me and willing me to get better and not just from this country, people from all over the world have been in touch. When I started writing I didn’t expect anyone to actually read the blog let alone like it!

Some of you lovely people must have nominated me for a pretty big award in the blogging community because today I found out that my blog is one of ten to have been shortlisted *hence the happy tears* in the best newcomer category. I got a pretty big shock to discover a comment left on one of my posts today from someone telling me they had voted for me to win and loved the blog. I didn’t even know I was shortlisted and I reread the comment about 20 times. I couldn’t believe it, it was the best surprise ever. I cried in the Tesco car park surrounded by far too many people (I'm blaming Tamoxifen for messing with my emotions). It was right up there in my top ten embarrassing moments (along with Gangnam styling on the table tops of my local bar the day after my diagnosis but the less said about that the better). I feel very honoured to be in a category with so many other great blogs.

Really what I want to say is thank you to all of you because you make my life so much better and if I have helped any of you in anyway then all my struggles have been worth it! Raising awareness and helping others was what I set out to do. I wanted people to realise life with the big C doesn’t have to be all doom and gloom. I did my best to make you smile as well as talking about difficult things. By writing about my life and experiences to you all I discovered so much about myself and wrote things that I struggled to say aloud. I fell in love with writing, I met friends and I had my faith in the world restored. Hopefully one day no blogs like mine will be needed because someone will find a cure for this naughty disease, but for now I will keep writing so please help me to continue to raise awareness. Share the blog, continue to support Coppafeel! and most importantly keep checking those boobies.

Love you long time. X


  1. That's amazing Laura! It's no surprise though :) Your writing is beautiful and your seemingly unwavering strength and optimism have touched many hearts I'm sure.


  2. Thats such amazing news about the nomination, you deserve it, purely for being brave enough to put your entire journey on the internet, it truly is amazing and your determination and strength will have helped so many people! Also, as for scars, I hated mine for SO many years, but as i've grown older i've stopped trying to cover them up and become proud that they show exactly what i've come through. They're a symbol of your battle, be proud of them as i'm sure you will be =)

    Sophs xx
    The Sopho Diaries

  3. Hi Laura! I'm so glad I left that comment! Congratulations!

    Hope to meet you at the awards!


  4. Hey Laura,

    Awesome blog and a massive congrats on the nomination! You are indeed a very worth contender and I am so please to be placed in the same category with a strong, wonderful woman such as yourself. I look forward to reading future posts and meeting you at the ceremony!


  5. Hi Laura,

    Congratulations on the nomination! You are a strong, amazing woman and I am so happy to know you and have met you that day on the look good feel good makeup day! I love reading your blog and look forward to your new posts. Good luck :)xxxx

  6. Hey Laura,
    I saw you had been nominated a few weeks ago and voted for you straight away! Huge huge congratulations. You truly deserve it :)

    1. Thank you angel. Hope you and Margaret are doing well! xxx

  7. Anonymous1.9.13

    Just read your article in Fabulous magazine. Congratulations, you are a true inspiration.

    Jo x

  8. Jo x1.9.13

    I to have just read your article in fab mag. I take my hat off to you& will be spreading the Word far & wide to read your blog. Your courage & optimism are infectious, even via the airwaves. I watched my friend fight against her own Kenneth & your attitude & strengh reminds me of herso very much. You are clearly made of the strong stuff. I wish younothing but happiness from an inspired reader & fan!